Why am I in a tree

by Ben S.

/
  • Streaming + Download

     

1.
2.
3.
4.
00:47
5.
6.
7.
8.
03:08
9.
10.
11.
12.
01:00
13.
14.
05:28
15.
16.
01:13
17.
18.

about

Wow I can't believe this album is finally done. Just a little story I wrote and liked, and managed to clean up enough to make into an album! I hope you like it, and if you don't, the world goes on! Love you all. Without further ado, Why am I in a tree

THANKS SO MUCH FOR LISTENING <3 <3 <3

credits

released April 7, 2016

All songs written/produced/mastered by me, besides track 18, which has guitar and backing vocals written by the Brazilian artist, Luiz Bonfá (originally the song Sambolero).

Other samples listed within track descriptions!!!



Thanks to Jody Fenton for taking the album cover picture!
I'd like to thank Michelle Obama for being such an awesome first lady :)
Thanks to my amazing piano teacher Mrs. Madonia for teaching me everything I know about piano. Without her, this album would not exist...
Thanks to my parents for inspiring me with all of their musical endeavors!!!
Shouts out to Nadim Quazi for lobbing me suggestions throughout the album!!!!
Thank u Noble for the great feature <3
Shouts out to Josh M. for being a great guy
Thank you everyone for being awesome. Sweet!

tags

license

all rights reserved

about

Josh M. & Ben S. Utica, New York

contact / help

Contact Josh M. & Ben S.

Streaming and
Download help

Redeem code

Track Name: Intro (Adventure)
He bled poems, told his girl to not come home. He's alone with a phone and he aint phoning up a plan instead he's standing his land, crammin his masses, trynna find the right lash to make him understand rational decisions... Choices moved in an instant... Boiled to the point where they seem, no longer existant, and yet he still grips it, with anger in his eyes, he's sick of all the lies and he is trynna find a rise of a sun, trynna see how the next day won, he can't realize, that's the next day spun, he found bread crumbs, adjacent to a sidewalk now his sides are feeling minor and he's dying from the liars, he's on fire from the wires which had wrapped around his house. He noticed different things but he aint neva shout em out.
Track Name: Spend My Summers Near Pools, with Fun Fools
This is for all the lefties tryna stand
This for all who left me and are standing... I understand

I understand, why you made me, stand all night, and I would be honored to stand, in your light, oh...

We fought through hoods, we thought of you, we spottin clues, we hot, not cool,

And we try to gang but we never cool... Spend my summers near pools, with fun fools :)

When the sharks come to bite, just know I tried my best to have your chest, never rest too low, steam, in my right, we felt the world's night and sights we had frightened would fuel, our flight's flight

Might find her again next week
Forgot her face but she dancin in my dreams
A lucky meet and now im beggin to meet, sweet; her eyes started out with a greet, then they stayed friendly at me... I was in for a treat...

And she smiled at me... She wanted to know who i be... And she smiled at me, and she smiled at me!!! (alright thanks man) she let nile, keep flowing, her hair, bestow me, she made me feel like I finally know… me….

Alone, i never want to be, can't we just be, she, was so special to me, she held my heart in her sea.... She built fire in my water... She flows and she's softer.... Than ever…. Reminded me of my Daddy’s leather

And so we journey, learning, inferring and hurrying through what, seems kinda scurrying, a blur, and something sorta worrying

A bit unsure, and a sprinkle of cinaflurry, we off… to face what faces us… Off, to face the great untouched…

Will I ever meet her again, I can’t face it it’s a feat that I will have to begin, on my feet, it seems, that I’m at it again… It’s called life, and it's...

a thing that we all gotta give!
Track Name: Every Little Kid
Every little kid wants to be famous, every little kid wants to have their name, written into the pavement, they all wanna make a statement, or finish crazy races in rich fararis, racing stars, shooting past shooting stars, and having a million cars, writing ten million bars, farther than arnold palmer ever dreamed of parring off on, and often i can guess that we all want to impress, our souls into the world, or our show to our girls, we show, all the girls, our flow, and our know it all instincts, are stinky, and we don't even know it... Row your boat if you've ever wanted to float and the stream has been ferocious and tried to eat you to pieces cause life plays how you piece it together, that's why forever and ever we've been building puzzles back before we even knew it, we've been piecing up rubble from deepened trouble that was brewing we've been cruising through oceans we never knew had sharks we've been brave, but still had parts where we saved, our souls from troubles unknown, it gets hard on our own but, it's easy to belong... and we listen, to crazy songs from people, who had never belonged, that believed in a magic, a magic that held hands and danced, until nothing tragic in the world ever pranced... magic, that loved and rained throughout the skies like... Nobody could see it throughout the eyes it was felt in our hearts....

Every teenager knows cupid is evil, they know that love is real tho, and and it can be riskier than knievel, every teenager knows that thoughts, can eat whole, through anything, and let it be known, it ain't settling... Every teenager knows that the key to success... is not resting, it's a test that will push us all unsettling... It needs heart, and determination, and it's hard, to start a nation, when you're playing with, others hearts, and determinations...
And every older kid can't ford an aLexus, neither a ford or a girl, so he feels worthless inside this worried world... And every older kid wants those grades that shimmer, this leads all us, worried sicker than anyone, who's ever partied and got sicker than an infirmary worries are constant, we flaunt what we got and our taunts leave us with draughts... Every older kid really wants, that true love... But our hindsight... blinds us from the blue doves...
Track Name: My Own 2 Shoes
Never had much besides my own 2 shoes...
So how would I know how to run to you... When I don't know how to walk, and...
And it's crazy cause I'm bad at talking...
Flock with all the sea gulls, I... Never know who we are...

Going to any sea shore... Trynna find belief in somethin, more than just the sea, it's just reality you see and I'm
affected by this madness, I'm inflected with your... madness, and upper sadness
Could you take my hand miss, and maybe we can dance and sing a little louder
Than the rest of the crowd, feel a little prouder than the rest of the crowd, I don't know what's gonna happen right now, I just know that we are part of this town... and...

Dance upon insanity as we're... Drowning in mars, and...
Trynna find a sanity that's... Never been ours...
You're looking at my hands like... I don't want them... They're scarred


Trying to find peace in what was never ours
Track Name: Fatherly Thoughts
Some say the picture’s perfect
I just say it ain’t working…
Some see the beauty in it,
I just see vesuvius

Piss in a pot
often a lot
darker than the
key to a coffin, coughing while
fathering lots…

Dog this is darker than dark
this is pavement, knees skinning this is
offering shots, to the seas thinning, we’ve been thinking bout
calling it off… Dawg, the darkest of locks… I got the key and now I’m thinking bout the darkest of thoughts…

And now I’m calling it off… To the seas thinning, I’ve been thinking bout our fatherly thoughts… My knees trembling I’ve been drinking, now I’m fogging it out… I’ll please the heavens eventually but for now I gotta be off.. I gotta be off….
Track Name: But This Ish Happens (ft. Noble)
Ben:

Your soul darker than poe’s poetry
Openly so morosely
partook in forlorn sorcery
Darker, than finding potency
Hidden inside of a movie scene
Or a rosary, woefully toeing
Through your inner hopes and dreams
He, who was not meant to be
She, she danced with broken knees
Probity, inside her soulfully
Vocally, open mic event…
That last clap, like
The joker wanted more than he
Joked about… He ain’t havin it…
The joker wanted more than he Joked about…
He ain’t havin it…

it’s too disastrous
Rhyming with the henny
Too calamitous
Rhymin’ like it’s all friendly, till the rapture, pastor take
Another sip… Cause we all tumblin, rumblin
Stumblin, fallin down the hill
I spilled my drink and Imma need to pay the bill about now…

You laughin cuz it’s funny seeing me stumble?? Man, we all
bundled in our small worlds, cozy blankets, small turtley shells,
Tertelly sheltered from any of this helter skelter type stuff
There’s so much pain and we need help if we gon make it through tough…

You laugh like you ain’t all about it…
Your stomach’s grumbling, eyes hungry, and words fumbling, funny
Cause you thought you’d be the same without him, funny how that happens… You thought you’d rock those greens without him… Funny, how that happens ehh…

But this shit happens…………..
But this shit happens……….
But this shit happens......

Noble:

Why my dad had to beat?
Why we had to leave?
Why couldn't we be like every family on the street
Every family was
about to get a PS3
And I was trynna act real strong
But you could see through me
Well I was bumblin and strugglin
And always cussin
Talk to God
And we'd always just end up fussin
I'm not gon lie
Ya I started to feel like nothin
But it's not his fault that
I didn't feel like I'm somethin
And I do not want to seem
Like I'm disrespecting my father
But I lowkey really started
To have disdain for my father
That lame nigga used to
Beat on my moms
And beat on my brothers
And beat on me
Then beat on his heart
Then apologize and say
"My freakin mind is marred
I'll buy you a car
I didn't know I'd gone that far"
Little did I know
Of all these episodes
And how frequently they aired
Of where his temper explodes
And I'd plead "mommy, mommy
Let's not leave him tho
I know he a joke
But at least he trynna raise me tho" I came from him
Although I wish I didn't
And now I'm scared I'll get
Some of his characteristics
I know this ish happens
But I won't let this happen
I'll be a black dad providing
Without rappin or trappin
Track Name: I'm over you
Free… At last….
Someone tell them demons their time is up, it is overdue….
It’s over dude…. So stop telling my mind
that I can’t smile… I’m over you… And never mind all that broken glass, I’m over you, soap in hand, I am over you…. And you keep appearing despite my heart's fortitude, I’m trynna to build a fort to keep you, from taunting horrors you swore me to….

I’m over you… No I’m- I’m almost over you,- I’m over you!!!!

My heart’s soaring mood died… Back when you told me I’m over you…
I stopped seeing a point, to sharing or caring, man, this is older news…
I stopped daring to share, my food carelessly, I’m a colder dude now…
I eat my sandwiches alone… Lots of mustard, and straight patrone

And I’m still trynna get over you…

Cause when you told me I was special, I took that to heart… And dawg… It was like you stenciled me in, to a drawing forever… Exactly how you wanted to… Large longitude, I wasn’t even on the map, you couldn’t find me if you wanted to… And I was still fond of you, knowing that I was a bother to you… Knowing that I was something smaller than small to you…

I'm trynna get over you

I watched you fall in love again with another guy… And I have to say I really didn’t mind… But it hurt my mind, and I'm tired and I just want to go home... But I don't know where home is because home was you... I'm sitting where I don't know where I am cause of this large longitude

Eating me alive...
Trynna meet me in the night trynna eat me alive

And I'm still trynna get over you
But I guess I ain't over you
I'm trying to get over you
And I can clearly see this overview
and clearly, I'm not over you...
Track Name: Take it Slow...
Take it slow....
Just do your best...
And no one knows what this world's about....
Not even the best of them!
Not even the worst of them...
No one knows...
No one knows...
Track Name: I'm in Love with You
And everything that you, wanted to say to me....
I don't want to hear it anymoreeeee
Can't you hear it, at the kitchen door...
I'm in.... Love with.... You

I’m in love, baby this ain’t just the doves… This is some straight eternal connection maybe destined by heaven above… We met at the 7/11 while I was buying an iced tea, you were wearing a white t, you were buying some ice cream, I asked if it was Thursday, you said naw it’s a Wednesday… Still pushing whips, and watching games at the Fenway (hey)
Still pushing whips and watching games at the Fenway

But this is, and was love, and I am stressed from it all above, and I’m a mess from worrying enough, I’m a mess, I am never enough… I am destined to bury myself, helplessly within my thoughts… And all because I have trouble talking about it…. Dog, sometimes it’s colder than that ice cream you first bought… Sometimes it’s bolder than those words were first talked… Sometimes it’s like pushing a boulder up towards the mountain tops… Still pushing whips and watching games at the Fenway

And everything that you, wanted to say to me....
I don't want to hear it anymoreeeee
Can't you hear it, at the kitchen door...
I'm in.... Love with.... You



And half of em' people are talkin' crazy
Half of them people don't know your name
Half of them like you because you're beautiful
Half of them like you because of your name
They don't know your deepness inside
they don't know where your heart resides
I'm trynna find a reason to stop, but
my heart keeps beating inside

I'm trying to let go, I'm trynna
find something greater than my piano,
to let you know that...
I'm in love with you...
And somehow I feel the need to mask my emotions
with this autotune, so I can pretend, that maybe it wasn't me
And it was all you...

Nothing even matters
TooooOooOo meeeeeeeee
I don't care about the money....
I don't care about the money.....

Half of them people are talking crazy
Half of them people don't know your name
Half of them love you because you're beautiful
Half of them love you because of your name

But I love you....
All the same....
All the, all theeeeeee same....
Track Name: I guess I've got a lot on my mind... :)
Was it all for the streets?
Do you know what I mean...
The summer... Was great
But it's over now... It's over now...
Gotta get back, I have some paperwork to do, and I love y- I gotta do my work...
I got responsibilities, I'm an adult now... Don't bother me, with that stuff now... I gotta figure my life out...

I'm an adult now... I'm not going to play pokemon with you or sing songs, in the shower...

I guess it wasn't all for the streets...
Do you know what I mean?
The summer... Was great!!!
(It's over now, it's over now)
I guess I've got a lot on my mind...
And imma need a little more time...
To get back... To where I was, in this world...

And I don't have any time for these emotions, I'm an adult now, it's all commotions, it's all about promotions, I'm trynna get my, note in...
So I can be the best in the world... I mean in my job, in my job...

...

I guess I need a little more time!!!
Cause maybe baby, this was summertime...
And dreams can... Still come true
Even when you're 22!!!

No I'm only 17, I needed a word that rhymed with truuuu uuuu uuu uuu uuuuuuuuu
badaba ba dee dee boop boop,,, boop BWAH BA DAH DAH BAOOOH

I guess I've got a lot on my mind...
Track Name: Is It Ever Gonna Matter???
I wanna see you again...
But you hurt me too much and now I'm sitting here crying cause you hurt me and she took my lunch... I had lunchables that day....

I don't know, but it doesn't really matter... You get a couple fractures but they really don't matter... Trynna say words, but you seem to make them madder.. When it comes down to it, is it ever gonna matter? The tongue was not made to be silent, so don't feel the need to be quiet.... Cause we all appreciate your fire, I swear someone turned a fan on.... I wasn't plannin' all this, but... since you ran into this... Make a man out of this....

Piano keys smashin'... Don't hate him cause he's got fashion... He just wants to stand out... And let everyone know, he's here to jam out... He's ready to... Face his fears, ready to ignore those, eyes of his peers, as a young lost male he's ready to... Catch the cat by it's tail.... And jump in!
Track Name: Thanks
Where do our minds go, when we ain't around… I've been thinking it time, from time… do they head to a different town, where we ain't present… Maybe they hold it down, to keep it in the present…

But life is some awesome present… We have been here presenting ourselves, against lessons…. And baby you ain’t any less to me, than anything this world has ever made you out to be….



So while we find our own revolution, I would love to represent for all them people who ruled it… Them kids, who faced, demons who ruled it… Demons with guns, against those people with none…

My heart goes out to anyone, despite all this negative energy, and everything, you said to me... And let it be beeee gone, how you broke my heart and left it on the see-saw...

Cause down to the wire… Putting out fires… Risking their lives, so I can find myself tired…Why aren't they admired more… Ya know these are the people that make lightning roar…

It's hard to understand what
They have sacrificed…. But
My heart justttt says thanks….


Those days when you're surrounded by walls, and then the only thing that''s saving you is your own balls… Those risks you take, become essential to the cause….

Where did we, where did we, wheredidee, whareweewee blardeeblaree...
Where did we find our love...


I wish you really cared, wish you woulda tried, but it ain't chur fault I wasn't the right guy…. My shoes are old and torn apart, so I wouldn't have expected you to really want to try, from the start…. OOh… and then there's this jazz in this undazziling situation… The unexpected which makes it expected you would want to leave me vacant… In the rain on vacation… It's dainty how we wasted, these laces that were built to save us…. Laces built so we could race through tough, enough wear and tear to bear all of the world had in common….


And were you ever even happy from the start, or was it all just an excuse, to break my heart… Have you ever even felt what autumn brings… The autumn leaves sing colors… Don't you believe me…. I wanted to sing with you… But now it stings to think of you… Spaghetti....
Track Name: He's Aware, It's Been Autumn Since the Evening
Hear your heart resting
Gently regressing….
like love upon an ocean
this is thousand islands dressing…
Who coulda wrote this…
This is like how it goes in movies…
A princess lives alone until a
Goofy guy intrudes, with his
Messy hair, and messy stare
You can hear it in his voice he’s scared
Cause she is extra special…
And
Nothing’s too special for her…

So they off, to face what faces them
off to face this great untouched…
Will they never let go
Or break apart like they Legos…

But anyways,
She kinda thinks he’s funny
And his eyes, they like to move a lot…
And she can see he doesn’t do this a lot…
And he thinks a lot… About every single move he makes…
Like he is so worried about making a mistake...

Cause he knows he’s a goof… And he often spills his juice…
but she insists… "I’m just thankful that you exist…."

And why is his shoelaces always getting twisted, And why does he always fumble his words like he’s missing that one right word…

And he gets scared cause she probably gon leave him…
And he gets scared, cause she probably don’t need him…
He’s aware, it’s been autumn since the evening…
And things are changing, wolves are howling, flowers seeping…
And things are changing, wolves are howling, flowers seeping...
And things are changing, wolves are howling, flowers seeping...
And he’s aware, it’s been autumn since the evening…
And he’s aware, it’s been autumn And he’s aware, it’s been autumn since the evening…

With those eyes, he’s checking every movement…
To see if he can find, any dissonance that’s grooving…
She can play an act good, like in a movie…
It’s hard to notice, anything, this ain’t soothing!!!

“How was work”
“It was good”
Oh this is soothing…
She’s like a smooth criminal
playing smooth subliminal raw
jazz for a setting so
smooth and kinda unsettling…

He takes a seat and settles in…
Thinks of flowers pedaling and how they
end so settling… Without much attention…
But when you notice their love… It’s something sweeter it’s not the end of it, it leaves it’s song settlin-

“Hey, what’s on your mind?”
He looks up with eyes unsettling
Trynna find the words to make this situation just settle in…

“Why am I always in a tree” (“what”)
These leaves aren’t settling they're always changing color…
I can never find a balance, and I’m worried I’m a bother…
I always spill my juice, and I’m always staining the carpet…

I just want to have a normal tree with green leaves
That won’t get mad at me, or make me feel like a dweeb.

"Honey, you’re fine, I think you are just overthinking it…
The juice is all fine, I know you love drinking it…
And you aren’t a dweeb, you’re the best and I mean that dearly you see…

See, if I were you, I would love to be in a tree…
So many colors, and they all sing dearly just for me…
Honey, change is special, it’s a part of what makes us all special… That’s why you’re in a tree….” -